So much talk about love...
I hear realists (pessimists) are the idealists (optimists) who have been better informed.
I hear that parenting joy involves protectionism (defence?).
Please, define LOVE you are talking about... There are so many definitions.
Are you a wommman, or a mmman? Not being sexist here, but trying to see things from your perspective.

lol you don't know what love is? its not definition its something to give and receive, and what does it matter what sex I am love is universal it knows no gender

Sadly in all my loooong life it was always give, never recieve. no faith left.

If you have a half serious interest in Cuba - Take a look at Venezuela: particularly Margareta Island; property prices are a joke and the eastern end of the island gets little rain so is not so humid; (water is piped from the mainland), and it's the only country in the world were you get petrol for free: note a "service station fee" of a few cents a litre is charged to pay the guy who fills your tank - Note also that like some other countries - once you've got your dosh into the place; you cannot get it out easily???? ., EXTREEME CAUTION...

thats quite sad i hope you find your faith again and you never know whats round the corner don't give up