I have always recieved more than I gave when helping people with problems , it just makes me feel well lucky ? I have enough in my life to satisfy me , i am not a dreamer after riches or fabulous belongings , i have never been jobless or penniless , had my share of fame in my field . I have however been in the glutinous slime of deep depression and soared the heights to outer space on a manic journey to any place but down , absolutely drugless . My mother always told me i would be always surrounded by love as long as i gave it freely , what a soothesayer she was !!! I recieved love in those times and now i am surrounded again from the wonderful people on this forum , please excuse the smudgy words , but the humidity has risen somewhat , thanks again , Colin